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[Jul. 20th, 2005|10:33 am]

[	mood	\|	apathetic	]
[	music	\|	Nine Inch Nails - Beside You In Time	]

geez - i get harassed when i don't write in there, so i hope this makes you happy. like usual, i cannot sleep, so i am up and about trying to find things to do. i played poker last night, which was really fun. i didn't win any money, but it was an overall fairly good night. it was nice to get my mind off of things.

i move out of my apt. next wednesday, so i've been trying to pack my shit up, but it hasn't worked out quite well. i'm copying pictures now, so i can hang memories on my walls when i move back home. it all seems so sad - i hate kent so much right now, but i don't want to leave. i guess i just don't really want to move back into my house. i know it's nothing to be ashamed of, but i feel like i'm taking a step backwards. lately, i've been feeling that a lot.

on a positive note, i have one class down - meteorology. it was a fun class, but i am glad it's over. now i only have world geography until august. woohoo for freshman classes!

i suppose i should try to find something to do. i do have to study for a test that i have tonight though.

[Jul. 6th, 2005|04:15 pm]

[	mood	\|	hopeful	]
[	music	\|	Dashboard Confessional - Again I Go Unnoticed	]

[so quiet
another wasted night,
the television steals the conversation
exhale
another wasted breath,
again it goes unnoticed

please tell me you're just feeling tired
cause if it's more than that i feel that i might break
out of touch, out of time
please send me anything but signals that are mixed
cause i can't read your rolling eyes
out of touch, are we out of time?

close lipped
another goodnight kiss
is robbed of all it's passion
your grip
another time, is slack
it leaves me feeling empty

i'll wait until tomorrow
maybe you'll feel better then
maybe we'll be better then
so what's another day
when i can't bear these nights of thoughts
of going on without you
this mood of yours is temporary
it seems worth the wait
to see your smile again
out of the corner of my eye
won't be the only way you're looking at me then]

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[Jul. 6th, 2005|03:14 pm]

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mood

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depressed

]

blah. i didn't get much sleep last night, so i tried to take a nap after my morning class. i slept good for about 20 minutes, but then i had a nightmare and woke up. i couldn't get back to sleep for an hour, so i just decided to get up. i'm still plagued by nightmares - not as much as before though. i'm going through my mood cycles again, and today is not good. i'm bummed, and feel crappy. i just can't wait until i move out of kent. i feel like a loser moving back home, but i think it'll be a good move. i get to repaint my room (fun!), and have all of the luxuries of home. fewer bills too!

i think i'll watch drew carey on tv, until i have to do something productive.

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stupid surveys	[Jul. 5th, 2005\|03:29 pm]
i stole this from my old RA jules (i miss ya girl!), who stole it from me years ago. My days are: boring In the morning: the birds wake me up In school I do/did: good I like to sleep: anytime If I could be doing anything right now I would be: not be in my apt. Money is: not important One thing I wish I had is: my college degree One thing I have that I wish I didn't is: bills All I need is: love If I had one wish it would be: to be happy When I look in the mirror I see: a reflection of myself Love is: the best feeling in the world If I could see one person right now it would be: the obvious Something I want but I don't really need is: enough money for anything I want I am afraid of: failure It makes me angry that: i'm still in college I dream about: past memories Have you ever... Been rejected? yes Been in love? yes Been in lust? uh, yeah Used someone? nope Been used? yes Done something you regret? hmmmmmm, i'm sure Do you... Colour your hair? nope Have tattoos? no Piercings? not anymore Have a girlfriend/boyfriend? ummmm . . . Own a web cam? no Ever get off the damn computer? yeah, i'm only on it when i'm really bored Have you/do you... Stolen anything? back in high school Smoke? yup Smoke pot? never Crack? no Drink? yep Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name? i dunno, maybe Been so drunk that you didn't care that you couldn't remember your name? see above Posed for nude pics? hahaha Are you/Do you have... Psycho? i don't think so Split personalities? i'm going to say no Schizophrenic? nope Obsessive? no Compulsive? no Panic? sometimes Anxiety? all the damn time Depressed? from time to time Suicidal? no Obsessed with hate? no Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? this is stupid Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? who makes these things If you could be anywhere, where would you be? big city Who would you be with? i don't know What would you be doing? hanging out, and having a good time What are you listening to? nothing, watching tv Is ice cream the best thing in the world? i'm going to say no ~YOUR FAVORITE~ 1.Look: amazement 2.Pair of shoes: my sandals 3.Daydream: being happy 4.Actor(s): ed norton, robert de niro 5.Actress: jessica alba, alexis bledel 6.Kind of pop: pepsi 7.Color of hair/eyes: dark hair, blue eyes 8.Hairdo: as long as it looks good 9.Activity: hanging out 10.Purse: i don't own one ~WHICH DO YOU LIKE BETTER?~ 1.Boys or girls? girls 2.Clothes or nakedness? well, that all depends 3.Food or sex? both are good 4.Hugging or kissing? they're both good 5.Friends or family? you can't pick 6.Hair up or hair down? both are good 7.Funny people or nice people? funny 8.Pants or shorts? i dunno 9.Shoes or bare feet? bare feet 10.Black or white? black 11.Rainbow or plain color? rainbow 12.Ice cream or frozen yogurt? ice cream 13.Movies or TV? movies 14.Home or somewhere else? both at different times ~THINGS YOU HATE~ 1.Person: that's tough 2.Book: i have no idea 3.TV Show: everybody loves raymond 4.Movie: team america 5.Type of music: country 6.School subject: english 7.Stereotype: all guys just want ass 8.Hairdo: mullets 9.Type of outfit: trashy girl clothes 10.Color: brown 11.Food: green beans 12.Animal: cats, they are devils 13.Activity: throwing up 14.Car: vans 15.Inanimate object: uncomfortable chairs 16.Drink: i don't know ~WHAT DOES THIS WORD BRING TO MIND?~ 1.Tiffany: friend from high school 2.Gay: happy 3.Bisexual: i don't know 4.Black: white 5.Boys: Girls 6.Girls: shady 7.Chat room: computer dorks 8.Iowa: boring 9.Dog: my dog cloe! 10.Cat: moody little bitches 11.Rainbows: pop sicles 12.School: kent state 13.Sex: that would be ok 14.Masturbation: master of my domain 15.Porn: cheesy and funny 16.Corn: cob 17.Guitar: music 18.Music: passion 19.Finger: middle 20.Money: spare change what a great way to waste time.
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[Jul. 4th, 2005|11:01 pm]

[	mood	\|	sleepy	]
[	music	\|	Bishop Allen - Busted Heart	]

i just got back from a nice weekend away from kent. i got to relax, eat some good food, and see some friends. during my time of relax, i got to sort out some junk going on in my life, and find out some stuff about myself. i made some priorities, and started to organize myself. i feel good - nice and relaxed. hopefully i'll get some awesome sleep tonight. i did take an awesome two-hour nap today on my living room floor. i don't know how i managed that, but it was nice. got to love carpet imprint all over my body. this will be a short school week - only three days i have to go. i need to watch my nightly seinfeld then to bed i go.

[Jul. 3rd, 2005|09:38 am]

[	mood	\|	numb	]
[	music	\|	Dashboard Confessional - Again I Go Unnoticed	]

i actually got some good sleep last night. i haven't really gotten any good sleep this past month or so. i went to bed at 10 and didn't wake up till just a bit ago. i should probably start going to bed early more often.

this weekend wasn't too bad. it somewhat got my mind off of stuff, and i got relax a bit. i have to go back to kent to work tonight, but then we're having a cookout at my house on monday. no class monday! i only have two weeks left of meteorology class. it's not bad - really easy. i'm still in world geography until the beginning of august, though it's only twice a week.

i'm not really sure what i'm going to do today, before i go into work tonight. i suppose i might wash my car, or work outside doing something. as long as i'm not sitting around bored off of my ass, i'll be fine.

[Jul. 2nd, 2005|09:31 am]

[	mood	\|	sleepy	]
[	music	\|	Jack Johnson - Situations	]

[situation number one
its the one that's just begun
but evidently its too late

situation number two
its the only chance for you
it's controlled by denizens of hate

situation number three
it's the one that no one sees
all too often dismissed as fate

situation number four
the one that left you wanting more
tantalized you with its bait]

[Jul. 2nd, 2005|12:11 am]

[	mood	\|	indifferent	]
[	music	\|	My Chemical Romance - Helena	]

just got back, and it's time to relax. tonight got somewhat better. the depression seems to taper off after awhile. the sting becomes less and less everyday as i grow more numb. as much as i don't want to admit it, i seem to be losing faith in people. was i just too naive before, too trusting? time to sleep off the bitterness, and start a new day - just to do it all over again.

[Jul. 1st, 2005|07:34 pm]

[	mood	\|	apathetic	]
[	music	\|	Dashboard Confessional - Sharp Hint of New Tears	]

i've had a rough day. seems like some are good, and others not so good. i'm just so confused with my life right now. i don't know what to do. i have so many issues that i'm dealing with. my last year of school is coming up, and it's freaking me out. i literally have less than a year here in canton/kent then hopefully i'm getting out of ohio. i've never made a move this big before, and it feels surreal. i just feel like things are up in the air, and i hate that feeling. i like having closure on issues and moving on.

my mood swings often leave me feeling depressed and worthless. it's like i have no direction or motivation in me anymore. maybe it's just because it's summer. i've never really liked the summer during college and school. i like being busy, and feel like i'm accomplishing something. the summer just feels like it's one big pause on life. as crazy as it sounds, i'm counting down the days until school starts again.

i've been very nostalgic lately rockin it to dashboard confessional. it's been forever since i've listened to them - so many old memories. it's time for me to move on, and make some new memories.

[Jul. 1st, 2005|10:47 am]

[	mood	\|	nostalgic	]
[	music	\|	Dashboard Confessional - Living In Your Letters	]

[there's no need to test my heart
with useless space
these roads go on forever
there will always be a place for you in my heart]

(no subject)	[Jun. 30th, 2005\|06:06 pm]
i took the best 3-hour nap today. i literally haven't had a good nap since the school year. the shitty weather made it all the better. i needed a day to relax. i'm watching seinfeld now, and just ate some dinner. life is good. haha. i have to work tonight 9-4, so i'll just laying around being fat. i'm heading home to canton for the 4th of july weekend. i figure i'll hang out with some friends, maybe see some people i haven't seen in awhile. monday we're having a big cookout so it'll be nice to see family i haven't seen in awhile. i am now bill free! i don't have to pay anymore rent, and i get to keep most of my paychecks until i move back home. i smell a shopping spree coming on. giggidy giggidy giggidy! i bought a new watch this past week, so i should be getting it on friday. i am obsessed with watches. now that i'm student teaching this next year, that means new teaching clothes! so excited. i'm going to break the hearts of so many high school girls. hahaha. i'm going to watch some more seinfeld.
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revenge of the survey

[Jun. 30th, 2005|12:17 pm]

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mood

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tired

]

while i'm cooking my food, i thought i would kill some time, so i stole this from kelle.

BASiCS:
[Name] Brad
[Nickname] B-rad, Braddie
[Screen Name] planetguster
[Birthday] January 30, 1982
[Age] 23
[Astrological Sign] Aquarius
[Location] Kent

[Status] Not really sure
[Religion] Methodist

[Eye Color] Blue
[Height] 6'3"
[Shoe Size] 11
[Parents Still Together] Yes
[Siblings] Brother Brian

[Nieces/Nephews] None
[Pets] My dog Cloe, and my bamboo plant Dr. Zoidberg
[In School/Graduated] Last year of college!
[Car You Drive] 95 VW Passat

FaVoRiTeS:
[Color] Blue
[Number] I have no idea
[Animal] Bears
[Vehicle] Land Rover Range Rover
[Flower] Tulips
[Scent] Womens perfume
[Drinks] Cool-aid
[Soda] Pepsi
[Book] Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris
[Band] Radiohead or Coldplay
[Song] Coldplay - Square One

Do YoU ...
[Color Your Hair] No
[Twirl Your Hair] Sometimes
[Have Tattoos] Nope, maybe sometime
[Have Piercings] Not anymore
[Have a Girlfriend] Once again, not really sure
[Cheated on Tests/Homework] I'm sure I have
[Drink/Smoke] Sometimes/no
[Like Roller Coasters] No

[Wish You Could Live Somewhere Else] Of course
[Like Cleaning] It's not that bad
[Write in Cursive or Print] Print
[Sweat a Lot] When it's hot out
[Own a Web Cam] No
[Know How to Drive] Yeah
[Diet] I watch what I eat
[Own a Cell Phone] Yeah
[Ever Get Off the Computer] Yes

HaVe YoU eVeR...
[Gotten a Speeding Ticket] Yes
[Been in a Wreck] No
[Been Arrested] No
[Been in a Fist Fight] Yes
[Kicked Someone in the Nuts] No
[Stolen Anything] Yes
[Held a Gun] Yeah
[Drank] Yeah
[Been So Drunk You Couldn't Remember Your Name] I'm sure
[Cheated on Someone] Never
[Cried Over a GurL] Yeah
[Cried Over a Boy] I don't think so
[Lied to Someone] Yeah
[Been in Love] Yeah, once
[Fallen For Your Best Friend] No
[Made Out With JUST a Friend] Yeah
[Been Rejected] Yeah
[Been in Lust] Yeah
[Used Someone] Never
[Been Used] Yeah
[Been Cheated On] Yeah
[Been Kissed] Yeah

CuRrEnT
[Mood] Tired
[Taste] Chicken fingers and doritos
[Hair] Wearing a hat
[Thing I Ought to Be Doing] Eating
[CDs in Stereo] Coldplay - X&Y

ThE LaSt...
[Book You Read] The Vampire Lestat
[Movie You Saw] I can't remember
[Thing You Ate] Currently eating chicken fingers and doritos
[Person You Talked To on the Phone] My mom

Do YoU...
[Do Drugs] Never
[Have a Dream That Keeps Coming Back] Yes
[Play an Instrument] Piano
[Believe There is Life on Other Planets] Sure
[Remember Your First Love] Yeah
[Still Love Him/Her] Yeah
[Read the Newspaper] Rarely
[Have Any Gay or Lesbian Friends] Yeah
[Believe in Miracles] Yes
[Believe It's Possible to Remain Faithful Forever] For me, yes - if you're really dedicated it's not big deal
[Consider Yourself Tolerant of Others] Yes
[Consider Love a Mistake] No
[Have a Favorite Candy] Snickers
[Believe in Astrology] Nope

[Jun. 29th, 2005|03:38 pm]

[	mood	\|	tired	]
[	music	\|	Dashboard Confessional - A Plain Morning	]

so now i have some time to catch up on everything. it's been a year and a half since i've last written in here. it seems so long ago. i don't even know where to begin.

i'm finally in my last year of college. woo! i'm doing my student teaching this year at ellet high school in akron, ohio. i'll be teaching science/physics, which is what i want. i'm really excited to finally start to get out of school, and into the schools. after this year, who knows what i'm going to do. i know that i want to move out of ohio definately. i figure that once i graduate, it's probably the best time for me to get out. if i don't do it then, i'd probably stay in canton for the rest of my life. i want to move to a big city out of state. i've been scoping out places lately, and i'm thinking philadelphia, pennsylvania. i want to go visit the city sometime this school year, and check out the city a bit. it's close to new york city, and washington d.c.

i've also met a very special person too. jen and i have been seeing each other since january 2004, and it has been amazing. i've loved every minute of it. it's amazing to see how much i've changed in the past year and a half. i feel this is "the one." it's been hard, being that she is in grad school out at purdue university, but i think we can work it out. i'm finally happy.

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[Jun. 29th, 2005|02:51 pm]

[	mood	\|	confused	]
[	music	\|	Coldplay - 'Til Kingdom Come	]

holy shit. it's been forever since i've even thought about this thing. someone sent me an anonymous message saying that i need to update it so here it is. so much has gone on since i last wrote in here, almost 2 years ago. i don't want to get into it now, but a lot has gone on. i'll have to catch up gradually. no time for that now.

[Nov. 30th, 2003|12:08 am]

[	mood	\|	tired	]
[	music	\|	Ben Kweller - How It Should Be	]

stephanie says she enjoys reading this so i decided i might start writing in it again. i stopped for awhile cause, well . . . i dunno. i just didn't feel like it. i just got off work. i closed tonight with trevor. usually working isn't all that bad, but i have a lot of fun when i work with t-bone.

thanksgiving break went pretty good. some time to relax. i had a lot of studying to do, but i never got around to it. i have 2 finals this week so i need to crack down. they're not gonna be fun either. they're my lab finals, which is a 1 credit hour class, yet the final is gonna be hard. why is that!?

i have to work 3-9 on sunday so i'll be driving up to kent after that. i wasn't too happy about that, but it's money and i need it bad.

i think i'm gonna go now. i need to start making out my christmas list :)

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[Nov. 6th, 2003|12:38 pm]

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music

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Radiohead - Motion Picture Soundtrack

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wow. my physics test was murder. i'll be lucky if i get out of this one alive. blah. i'm going to go eat some pita bread so i feel better.

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[Nov. 5th, 2003|01:26 am]

[	mood	\|	tired	]
[	music	\|	David Bowie - Space Oddity	]

crappy night turned out to be pretty decent. i'm happy for that

[Nov. 4th, 2003|05:48 pm]

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music

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Radiohead - The Tourist

]

i am literally going insane and i don't know why. why is something so trivial driving me crazy!? i should just be happy with what i have and be thankful that i still have it. all its going to take now is time. time will make me okay.

[Nov. 2nd, 2003|09:23 pm]

[	mood	\|	discontent	]
[	music	\|	Coldplay - Spies	]

finally, back at school and whatnot. had a good weekend home. went to a halloween party. wasn't too shabby, but didn't know anyone there. it was nice to get away from school.

i got to see my old friend steph. i literally haven't seen her in like a year and a half. we caught up on this and that. good times.

now that i'm back at school, same old crap going down here. i don't know what i'm going to do.

[Oct. 30th, 2003|12:29 am]

[	mood	\|	tired	]
[	music	\|	Smashing Pumpkins - In the Arms of Sleep	]

it's been a week. not a whole lot has happened. i'm starting to work out some of my stuff. i think everything is going to be okay. i've started making out my christmas card list already. i got a late start on it last year so i'm starting early this time around.

i can't wait until this semester is over. a friend and i were talking about how it's gonna be weird to be home for an entire month then come back. i just can't wait until christmas. this is my favorite time of the year.

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